The Kitchen
How can I tell you
the things that happened here
in this space
my body, hips and stomach
leaning, white wood on gray concrete,
for it amazed me
(the way mothers are amazed by
their love,
disarming them completely),
the way she moved
with such happiness,
delight in her small body,
dancing to music we played,
and her ability to climb
up to the kitchen counter
from the stool and press up against
her brothers’ shoulders while
their little hands gripped avocado for a snack.
And now I stand there, both myself and
watching myself
amazed at my capability to love
with an intensity that would surely kill me
except it saves me too
and I am so grateful,
praying with all those years—
help me love better—
that my love wasn’t what
had to be enough
for us all.