Here
How much more meaningful life
will be when
I think
all the things
figure out how to limit my mind from
cavorting in unpleasant places
like your illness and worries
about death
and the piles of receipts
you dutifully collect in a canvas bag
in the basement to shred
but really I want to care more
at the expense of knowing less
not about you but about why
the mattering of even
ideas of things means anything
more than what each one is:
attention fixed on a single moment
where everything holds me here.